[00:00.000] 作词 : Layton Greene/Shaffer Smith/Golden A. Styles
[00:01.000] 作曲 : Layton Greene/Shaffer Smith/Golden A. Styles
[00:02.04]Mama getting high up in the kitchen
[00:05.12]Daddy wasn't there, he was missing
[00:08.03]Nobody was there to even listen
[00:10.83]I kept all my problems and kept feelings hidden, yeah
[00:13.90]And I put the blame on me
[00:17.23]I put the blame on me
[00:20.65]I put the blame on me
[00:24.70]Only 10 years old
[00:26.87]I'm already numb, yeah my heart's getting cold
[00:30.01]Saw my mama getting weaker, hurt me to my soul
[00:32.93]The only man she loved, how could he do this to his girl
[00:35.80]He put that pistol to her head
[00:37.77]I swear he coulda shot her dead
[00:39.15]Man that liquor made him evil
[00:41.48]I swear that man ain't had no reason
[00:44.15]That shit just turned him to a demon, yeah
[00:47.84]Fast forward a couple years
[00:49.55]I done turned 12
[00:50.86]Living life one hell to the next hell
[00:53.51]I got cousins touching me inappropriately
[00:56.64]And don't nobody believe me when I tell
[00:59.49]When you learn that shit heals, ain't no one to look up to
[01:02.28]And the same people hurting you telling they love you
[01:05.30]Before too long you start believing
[01:07.81]That maybe you're the reason, yeah
[01:11.89]Mama getting high up in the kitchen
[01:14.67]Daddy wasn't there, he was missing
[01:17.63]Nobody was there to even listen
[01:20.40]I kept all my problems and kept feelings hidden, yeah
[01:23.63]And I put the blame on me
[01:26.76]I put the blame on me, yeah
[01:30.97]I put the blame on me
[01:33.20]Age 14 left East St. Louis
[01:37.14]New drama but I really ain't new to it
[01:40.04]Hear 'em laughing at lunchtime and I'm the joke
[01:42.95]Black and white was too black for the white folks
[01:45.97]I can't do nothing 'bout my face
[01:47.60]Feeling all over the place
[01:49.12]Over something I can't control
[01:51.54]**** is wrong with these people?
[01:54.30]Or is it something wrong with me though? Yeah
[01:57.76]Age 16, life's still mean
[02:00.37]Mama fell hard, needed rescuing
[02:03.22]She got a new man, he told her simply
[02:06.14]She could stay with him long as she don't bring me
[02:09.21]I guess she had to make a chose
[02:10.89]Did what she had to do
[02:12.11]Chose him over her own kid
[02:14.63]I don't know what would make her do this
[02:16.86]Had to be something I did, ooh
[02:21.34]Mama getting high up in the kitchen (eh)
[02:24.49]Daddy wasn't there, he was missing (eh)
[02:27.57]Nobody was there to even listen (yeah, yeah)
[02:30.42]I kept all my problems
[02:31.31]And kept feelings hidden, yeah (ooh) yeah
[02:33.62]And I put the blame on me (blame on me)
[02:36.54]I put the blame on me (ooh) yeah
[02:40.70]I put the blame on me (blame on me)
[02:44.13]I was homeless till I turned 18
[02:47.05]Started living with a man I was dating
[02:49.76]Last thing on my mind was graduating
[02:52.69]All about survival and money-making
[02:55.59]Always seemed to escape my reality
[02:58.72]Just tryna play the cards, goddamn me
[03:01.44]Posted myself singing a song 'cause it was on my heart
[03:05.11]When it went viral I was working in Walmart
[03:07.95]I got a new start
[03:11.12]Taking my pain, turning it into art
[03:13.96]Turning bad times into hot sounds
[03:16.75]For the first time where I belong
[03:21.85]20 now, making moves, making money now
[03:26.08]Rainy days hella sunny now
[03:29.06]But every now and then I think about
[03:31.69]Mama getting high up in the kitchen (eh)
[03:34.56]Daddy wasn't there, he was missing (eh)
[03:37.53]Nobody was there to even listen (yeah, yeah)
[03:40.39]I kept all my problems
[03:41.28]And kept feelings hidden, yeah (ooh) yeah
[03:43.95]And I put the blame on me (blame on me)
[03:46.72]I put the blame on me (ooh) yeah
[03:50.42]I put the blame on me (blame on me)