Growing Sideways
 作词 : Noah Kahan
 作曲 : Noah Kahan
So I took my medication and I poured my trauma out
On some sad-eyed middle-aged man's overpriced new leather couch
And we argued about Jesus finally found some middle ground
I said I'm cured
And I divvied up my anger into thirty separate parts
Keep the bad **** in my liver and the rest around my heart
I'm still angry at my parents for what their parents did to them
But it's a start
But I ignore things and I move sideways
'Til I forget what I felt in the first place
At the end of the day I know there are worse ways to stay alive
'Cause everyone's growing and everyone's healthy
I'm terrified that I might never have met me
Oh if my engine works perfect on empty
I guess I'll drive

I guess I'll drive

So I forgot my medication fell into a manic high
Spent my savings at a Lulu now I'm sufferin' in style
Why is pain so damn impatient
Ain't like it's got a place to be

Keeps rushin' me

But I ignore things and I move sideways
'Til I forget what I felt in the first place
At the end of the day I know there are worse ways to stay alive

'Cause everyone's growing and everyone's healthy
I'm terrified that I might never have met me

Oh if my engine works perfect on empty

I guess I'll drive

And if all my life was wasted

I don't mind I'll watch it go

Yeah it's better to die numb than feel it all

Oh if all my time was wasted

I don't mind I'll watch it go

Yeah it's better to die numb than feel it all

But I ignore things and I move sideways
Until I forget what I felt in the first place
At the end of the day Lord knows there are worse ways to stay alive

'Cause everyone's growing and everyone's healthy
I'm terrified that I might never have met me

Oh if my engine works perfect on empty

I guess I'll drive

I guess I'll drive