Envy/Love
 作词 : 番茄酱中酱
 作曲 : 番茄酱中酱
We have the same hobby
We love the same series
I long for your glimpse
Yet loathe you so deeply
Everything I can do you do far better
Everything you say seems to be so much cooler
Do you recognize my face? Do you still remember my name?
You leave me so bittersweet like a high school- er
When you turn to someone else
My skin itches and my bones ache sore
When you look me in the eyes
I wanna curl up and hide
I crave you, I hate you
Torn between being you or being with you
Sometimes it makes me wanna die
I wonder if you’ ll ever cry
Was it envy? Was it love?
I don’ t have a clue
There are only two scenarios in my dreams
Either we share the same bed
I sip the morning coffee in your shirt
Or we are enemies for life
Endlessly torturing each other
Till the day we die
I am the victim of your tricks, bruised by your kindness
Try to rip your perfect mask, my guitar is the only witness
But I helplessly fell for your charm just like everybody else
Please don’ t talk to nobody else
I clumsily mimic your every smile and every move
I copied your style which made me look like a fool
I stole your aesthetic while despise that too
I hate how you always just shrink and say you don’ t care
Cause I do
Hate you, but I crave you
Torn between being you or being with you
Sometimes it makes me wanna die
I wonder if you’ ll ever cry
Was it envy? Was it love?
I don’ t have a clue
Was it envy or hate, love or my grave
Will you hang out with me will you call it a date
Was it blood on the plate, were we decreed by fate
Too much of a coward to confess
So I wrote this song to say
Was I too sentimental or was I just delusional
I wanna pry into your wounds, dig up your every scandal
I wanna know if those scars ever itch and if those voices ever sting
You made me stop being faithful
How can it be hate when I’ m dying to stay
How can it be crave when I’ m pushing you away
A Marry, Kiss or Kill game that you’ ll never play
So maybe we should just stay this way