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[00:20.760]This is the closest thing I've found
[00:26.120]To a semblance of happiness I doubt
[00:31.415]It'll last much longer it never does so
[00:36.455]Now I'll go to the dark into the unknown
[00:41.975]It's difficult articulating just how I'm feeling
[00:44.895]I fall apart and crumble down every layer is peeling
[00:47.599]You're getting closer to the center you can see my insides
[00:50.160]I'm only rotten to the core but I can wish that in time
[00:52.847]I go to prove myself and show you all that I'm not the one
[00:55.471]They make me out to be a travesty and demon in one
[00:58.303]I'm nothing perfect I prefer to keep my thoughts to myself
[01:01.071]I'm still assuring I ain't hurting contradicting my health
[01:03.663]Ever since December anything I remember
[01:06.343]Is nothing good I miss the days when you put up with my temper
[01:08.911]I know I'm hot-headed not sending warmest regards
[01:11.559]I wouldn't think you'd wanna see me since we drifted apart
[01:14.488]Now the nights are long and the days falling short
[01:16.911]You ain't been calling up my phone but now I've been calling yours
[01:19.663]I want a last time I need to hear you speaking just once
[01:22.360]I still will love you all despite the things you've said and you've done
[01:25.103]This is the closest thing I've found
[01:30.136]To a semblance of happiness I doubt
[01:35.312]It'll last much longer it never does so
[01:40.656]Now I'll go to the dark into the unknown
[01:45.911]You say I'm so gifted but what is my gift
[01:49.007]When I be ruining Christmas by causing a rift
[01:51.831]I'm stirring up the melting pot hurt the ones that I love
[01:54.295]I do whatever that I want cause no one strikes from above
[01:56.943]If they were watching me they'd obviously be sending a sign
[01:59.583]I need autonomy no stopping me from living my life
[02:02.311]There ain't no message in a bottle coming up from the pipes
[02:04.990]I really think I'm only awful to the ones that I like
[02:07.703]I wonder how they put up with the words that I said
[02:10.400]I try to keep em to myself and keep em all in my head
[02:12.960]I hate confiding cause I find my thoughts are nothing but dark
[02:15.592]And often find myself at sea but like I can't disembark
[02:18.687]Won't appreciate me till when after I'm gone
[02:20.999]At least I lived a simple life doing things that I want
[02:23.664]You couldn't trap me or steer me right into a corner
[02:26.289]I did what I had felt was right thanks to all my supporters
[02:29.072]Four walls caving in
[02:34.624]There's no saving him
[02:39.583]Will they ever hear his real name
[02:44.903]Or know what it's like to feel pain
[02:50.440]Four walls caving in
[02:55.743]There's no saving him
[03:01.191]Will they ever hear his real name
[03:06.311]Or know what it's like to feel pain
[03:11.775]This is the closest thing I've found
[03:16.879]To a semblance of happiness I doubt
[03:22.046]It'll last much longer it never does so
[03:27.351]Now I'll go to the dark into the unknown
[03:33.239]Four walls caving in
[03:38.393]There's no saving him
[03:44.071]Will they ever hear his real name
[03:49.096]Or know what it's like to feel pain
[03:54.728]Four walls caving in
[04:00.078]There's no saving him
[04:05.439]Will they ever hear his real name
[04:10.608]Or know what it's like to feel pain